Now he doubts his closeness with Saiki because he doesn’t remember what he knew of him, who he is, the important stuff that made him understood Saiki like nobody else could. Now he has to be careful, again, to not let Akechi know about his powers yet, now he is still treated like a normal person, but now Akechi doesn’t know and now he is also treated like a stranger, now Akechi is confused because people tells him he and Saiki were close, but the boy he is getting to know is distant and stoic so he doesn’t know how they were close, he is confused because now he doesn’t know that despite seeming distant and cold Saiki cares, he doesn’t know that Saiki’s short answers and apparent dismissals are his ways of showing emotions because is hard for him and is the only way he knows how to, now when he hears what may seem like a cold reply or a response to spare his feeling he takes them as such, because now he doesn’t know Saiki, he can’t hear the true meaning behind his short or snarky answers. He misses how Akechi understood how difficult it was for him to show his care, his feelings and how he never pressured him. He misses how Akechi could read him like an open book, how he could be his stoic and admittedly cold self without worrying about hurting his friend’s feeling by accident, because Akechi knew he cared, he misses that he could act the way he wanted and show emotion the way he wanted knowing that his friend didn’t care if he wasn’t expressive, didn’t care that he didn’t show emotions like others, didn’t care he wasn’t like others, he misses how easily Akechi simply accepted him, no idealized version of himself that just exist on his mind, no wishful thinking that someday he would be more bold or affectionate, no whish of changing anything about him. Saiki misses how easy it was-and oh, how he hates that it was- to be himself around Akechi, how the blonde never treated him any differently after knowing about his powers, how he treated him like a normal person despite admiring his abilities, how he made him feel like normal person even if just for some seconds. ![]() I’m doing this because I’m currently working on chapter four of Memories and I just want to show a very small part of what I’m doing :D ![]() Hello! Here, if you want, post a chunk of recent writing, or a work in progress!
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